Those Dark brown eyes....

I once laid my eyes on the most beautiful pair of eyes
a pair of eyes that can only described by the aptness of its name
a name that still echoes the familiarities of a friend
a name that still brings back the memories of the eyes, those most beautiful eyes

The dark brown eyes just stare at me from the abyss
taunting, scrutinizing, tearing at the lengths of every emotion
i know not what it wants from me, but for enticing me to get lost in them

A name which aptly beholds the deep brown eyes it possesses
a name that does not know the power of the subject it assesses
i knew not that i had a poet in me lay
until, in those deep brown eyes my heart began to sway
i still know not what is it about those eyes that hold me astray
but i do hope those deep brown eyes do begin to sway

for if not i shall always be lost
in the quest for the brown eyes that still holds me astray

I have a great time with my life and I love living!

I was recently going through a blog post which was giving the usual advice on living and being successful, though some of the thoughts were well articulated I didn’t find anything unique in the posts except for this one. This had nothing but a collation of quotes by will smith, the actor. Some of the things that he said really stuck me, quite powerful stuff from the actor. He goes on to talk about life and how hardwork and focus is what it takes to become successful, you can find the complete video here. But two things that he says in that video really stuck onto me

"We didn’t grow up with the sense that where we were, was where we were going to be, instead it was with a sense that where we were didn’t really matter because we were becoming something greater."

"I know who I am. I know what I believe. That’s all I need to know. Period "



Those two sentences pretty much sums up what has been bandied about countless times around the world. Believe in yourself and who you are and live the current moment like there is no tomorrow. Watching the video I made a promise to myself, that I have to take control of my life; I can’t wait for the next best thing to happen.
We many a times tend to; work, talk, play, do things; that will make us happy tomorrow. This is the work I need to do so that I am successful tomorrow, this is what I need to do so that my future is secure or this is how I need to live my life so that I don’t face any problems tomorrow. It’s amazing how much of our current is depended on the future! While I do agree that one needs to be aware of the consequences of your actions, the pure act of living today for tomorrow is a heinous crime. I am sorry if I have bored you of a lot of BS, anybody who has read the Power of Now will probably accuse me of plagiarism, but this is something that I strongly feel the need for at this point in my life.
So there it is I make a commitment to myself today, that I shall take control of my life. While going through a lazy Sunday afternoon, I make a few more notes to myself-

If you accept the pain, it cannot hurt you
Everyone needs to make sacrifices, and the pain of making the sacrifice always hurts more than you think it’s going to. Sacrificing your job, your friends or even for that matter your ego. Today I accepted that I had made a mistake, today I also accepted that I have lost a friend for life. My actions from today may help overcome the mistake that I made or get that friendship back on track, but it doesn’t matter, not really. What is done is done

Nobody cares, do it yourself
This I picked up from Hugh Macleod’s blog, but it applies perfectly well to anything that you do. It’s true; everybody is just too busy with their own lives. Nobody gives a damn about what you do, unless in some way it benefits them or tingles their curiosity levels. The people that are interested in your work are the ones that are benefited by them. Nobody really wants to read your blog, nobody really wants to see your pictures and nobody really wants to know what’s happening in your life. Accept it, live your life by it and it will be far simpler.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean to be a cynic here. I mean, you do have friends and family that support you and that care about you. But that’s not really what I was talking about.

Time - does it heal

Watching, staring at the window seeing lights passing by
Listening, to the sound of silence hoping time doesn’t pass me by
Thinking, its 3a.m. I must be lonely and outside it starts raining

All night talking to myself that I should get some sleep
Because, he says, tomorrow there might be something good for you.
I almost believe him when I say, hold on, I don’t think I want to look out for tomorrow
Because, I say, all I want is the past to come back

I am living for the past
Everything in front of me looks so good, but I keep longing to go back
Longing to change my decisions, who's to say my other present wouldn't have been perfect
I can't get back, but I can't let go either
I have this hope and hope is a good thing, says Red
Hope is probably the best of things. Maybe it is, maybe just.

A tear comes to mind, when I think of you 
And remember the time when our friendship was new
I have stopped counting my fingers,
the number of mistakes that I have made
I look back at yesterday 
oh what was i thinking